Crumbling.

I don't think I realized how incredibly lonely I feel until the first week of summer.
I've been going hard for so long, and have been around people so much that when I was alone, I just couldn't deal.

That scared me so much. I've never been in a situation where I felt uncomfortable being by myself. They almost felt like anxiety attacks.

I don't even know how it got to this point. I guess I just got really use to never having time to myself. I would have 12 hour long days, then go to a room with 3 other people there. It's just really quiet nowadays.

I've been trying to deal with it. Alone. So far it's been going okay. I've added to my plate. By this September, I'll have 3 jobs and school full-time. As far as the summer goes, I've been taking classes, working out, working at the library, and knitting a lot.

It's been hard. I especially took a blow when I realized that I probably mean less to some friends than they do to me. It hurt. A lot. But, I bounced back. It just sucks thinking about it.

Thanks for being there practically every week friend. <3

Its not that I don't have friends that'll be there. It's not that at all. I know you they are. I just need to be okay with me again.

Sorry, I know this was a little all over the place.
I just feel all over the place lately.